Looking Up

Questionnaire for 2024

 I've been having a grand ol' time slogging through the tumblr I've been keeping since... college? High school? Anyways, it's 1 am and I'm probably still on'y gone back to 2016 or so, plenty more to scroll through. I found this series of questions though, and since it's a new year I thought I'd try and answer them. 

end of year asks

1. what did you learn about yourself this year? Not sure. Maybe that I am not as strong as I have been in the past. I really just kind of gave up this year and if i don't change things, actually put effort into something, anything, I'll just keep on deteriorating.
2. best moment of the year? I'm not really a "remember-best-moments" kind of lady. I literally can't remember anything.
3. worst moment of the year? Probably cleaning the house and moving out. It was brutal, and unending. And exhausting, physically, emotionally.
4. what was the biggest change you experienced this year? Moving. I don't live in my own place anymore.
5. best song of the year? At the end of the year, the very end, I found a song called "Bone to Bone" by Small Fools and listened to that on repeat a couple hours a day for a few days. "Togtet" by Vanir, and other songs on my Metal, Etc playlist kept me from spiraling a lot this year. "Money on the Dash" and "What I Want" were top on my spotify wrapped, for what that's worth.
6. best album of the year? I enjoyed brat.
7. what’s one thing that happened this year that you want to change? I want to get back on meds. I am a pretty useless human being and want to be better.
8. best book/book series of the year? I read a lot of Richard Osman. I really enjoyed his worlds he built for me and my mom.
9. best television series? Oh god, I don't know. I watched Survivor with my friends, and that makes it the best show.
10. how was your love life this year? pass
11. what made you cry the most this year? weird stuff. I have been pretty turned off, but every once in a while somethign will sneak past the gate and I must do my duty and sob. And then stop.
12. biggest regret of the year? why choose. They're all my children.
13. best movie of the year? I enjoyed Challengers, Conclave, Nosferatu. I also enjoyed Drive Away Dolls, though I wish it had been tighter. I liked Furiousa, and Love Lies Bleeding too.
14. favourite place you travelled this year? I went back home, to say goodbye.
15. did you make any new friends? Yes
16. did you learn anything about your sexuality this year? It needs to be tended to or it dies.
17. what are some hobbies that you developed? no
18. what surprised you the most this year? nothing really
19. do you look different from the beginning of the year? I can't really differentiate time anymore.
20. how did this year treat you in general? the way I treated it. badly. via indifference.
21. what message would you give yourself at the beginning of the year? try a bit harder. You have health insurance, btw.
22. has your fashion style changed this year? I have leaned even farther into uniforms. I have about 6 pairs of the same pants, all the same socks. 3 pairs of the same bra, mostly the same underwear.
23. one of the best meals you’ve had this year? who can say.
24. who has made the biggest impact in your life this year? Rachel, she's housing me, god bless her.
25. what’s one thing that you hope will continue next year? living i guess, just better.

I don't know why I bothered, sad sack